Thursday, December 11, 2008
PET SOCIETY-ING!!!!
Friday, December 5, 2008
hi guys! I am here again! I am so not going to tell about how i feel today.. Again, i made a chocolate cheesecake this afternoon and guess how long did i take to finish it? 3 hours! before that, i went to buy all the ingredients and i know i have spent all my money on these cake stuffs!!! one thing i hae to mention about is :" I really don't like to shop around labuan, there's short of SOUR CREAM!!" so i have to make it myself which i combined whipping cream and half slice of lemon and put it in fridge for half an hour.. :Smy cheesecake was finally done and i am now blogging in front of my laptop again.. i am listening to a song which he used to listen.. i am not going to mention his name as u guys who know me better will know whom i meant to.. this was a shuffled song from my music file and i never knew that i have it too! this song used to be his ringtone and that's make me think about him again.. aikss.. my naughty brain is torturing my heart! LOL the feeling comes again... i feel so lonely now, and i starts to think nonsense again: how am i going to pass the rest of my holidays without him by my side.
i know how he will be back to kk very very soon, which if i am not mistaken, is 12 th of december.. i am so happy but still, i am so pesimistic that he wont call me out for tea.. maybe he wont call me out since i am not the important person in his heart, verene is in his heart but i am still outside his heart and knocking the "door" and yelling at his name... i know i am so desperate.. he is the second after jack whom i really put my whole heart on to.. how could i just ignore about where has he been goin, what has he been doing, is he missing her? is he missing me? does he care about i move to a new house? Lots of questionmarks lingering in my mind and i am so suffer from it..
Lots of memories between us, this blog will be my memory as well... i cant imagine when i becomes old someday, and i look back my blog, how am i going to make a response on it.. if he is not the one whom i get married with, will i still miss him that time? i hope i will :D
that's so little reason for me to like him,but i cant help like him deeply.. mayb i am so destined to be so suffered from loving someone who doest like me or someone who makes me expect too much..
i promised many of my frens that i will get over him, but i think i will upsetting u all, i cant even stop searching his name in my msn fren list and oftenly, the first thing i will do after i log on to my facebook is looking around for him, see if he has been updating any new info or uploading new pictures, even picture with her, i will still expect to see!
Today i just can give myself 50 marks for not able to forget him :S
Today i am actually in a very very happy mood.. i was out this whole day with my dear friend whom i haven't meet in ages.. i know some will ask me where else to go around labuan... yea.. that's boring so we just simply walked around, spent our time crapping around... :P and because of this lovely fren i have nearly not thought about him..
Somemore i bought a sunglass which i loved so much, just that the salesman was so annoying.. we bargained with him on the prize, this made him felt we were irritating.. that's the reason he treated us like shit.. he is nt important, so i was not going to put this small case in my heart.. :S
Anyway i reached home about 6pm and i was so shocked that my dad suddenly told me that he wanted a contact lens as well =.= since when he becomes so "in"? i was so speechless! haha haha..
not long time after, i was chatting with two of my close friends and they was having some love situation... one of them have the similar problem as me.. and we were discussing about it for 2 hours! when it comes to advising people, i know i am quite good in it.. i was trying to advise them, convince them and console them, but still, i know i am still hurt when talking about it.. i could logically, reasonably, not emotionally suggesting them this and that but honestly i am still a victim in it and i should be convincing myself with this as well.. not only to others, but of course myself..
As usual, i am facing my laptop here... blogging and googling information about chocolate cheesecakes... that will be my next target.. i know i am too free to make it... "Takes time for granted!! " learn whatever u can when u r still young and when u r still so free!! Dont ever wasting your time!
that's one sentence i want to phrase out to share with my dear friends and my family: "Suffering is the fuel for wisdom, it opens the way to true happiness!!" i have already posted it in my msn!!!!
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Err... first of all i just want to announce that my blog wasn't dead, i am going to continue my update right now. Just in case you guys don't know, this blog and the following blogs will be so boring and not attractive at all because i will make these as my routine job besides improving my grammar(patricia, u have the responsibility to correct for me) to update my life without him, how am i going to pass through it.. and how much i will give myself each day in accordance to the level of missing him.. the marks will be inversely proportional to the level of missing him :PToday i woke up so early, as usual, i turn on my laptop, signing in messenger, scroll up and down se whether he is online-ing.. disappointedly, he didnt online for the whole day.. i start to worry about him.. many question marks around my mind: "is he sick?" "is he sad coz verene is leaving?" "is he tired?" etc.. so tiring! this is what i usually do before this blog.. i know it was tiring but i still do it as if it is so compulsary and i must do it everyday! cheh~~
despite all those thingy, today i am happy for not known reasons.. just feel so happy randomly.. and i have the mood to bake lovely banana cupcakes.. they taste "ma ma dei", but i think i have successfully baked them! i will try to improve my skills someday (means i will bake it more frequently) Besides i finished a cantonese series at once in one day.. Perhaps, that's the reason for me not to think about him...
I am tetris-ing again while my sisters are going to play basketball... i am so happy that nobody fight with me for that laptop..
I think i can get 70 percent overall just because i am not missing him that much.. the deduction of 30 percent is due to the concern of me to him, he is not online-ing as he normally will do, i am starting to worry about him... :( Sam, what have u been doing these few days? jenna and I are worrying about you.. jenna havent receive any of your reply yet..
My mood today: :D
Thursday, October 2, 2008
OBVIOUSLY WE MISS JING YU SO MUCH!!
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